You have gone so far away from the primary 'I am' that you find it almost impossible to disentangle yourself from the conceptual jungle that you are trapped in. Most of us are so deeply enmeshed in this world that there is no time to even think of all this. Only those who are sensitive and observant or have faced a crisis in life realize the futility of it all. Thus begins the quest of your true identity and the meaning of life. The Guru's advice is very simple: first, you have to understand the 'I am' as the primary concept and root of all the trouble. Then you have to sit quietly and become one with knowledge 'I am'. As you do so you will lose all concern with the world. Then, quite spontaneously, if you have been earnest in your abidance, the 'I am' would drop off leaving you free as the Absolute.