That stage when the message 'I am' had just arrived and was word-free is common to all. Everybody goes through this period, the non-verbal state, only knowing that 'you are' or 'I am'. In this stage there only exists the opposite 'you are not' or 'I am not'. Your movements from 'I am' to 'I am not' or vice-versa occur quite spontaneously with no volition at all. Changes begin as soon you are taught words or language and very soon the concepts take over, your verbal life or the mindflow begins. Along with these come the three states of being awake, dreaming or deep sleep and you believe that you are an individual with a body and mind functioning in this world. Now, you meet the Guru and he tells you to rediscover this long lost wordless, nascent 'I am'. It is still there and you have to relive it - that is the 'Sadhana' (the Practice).